i dont like mind games!! agh,killing me.

im a poor girl. just got my pathetic pay. BAH.

service today was really good in my opinion. and the message was good too. kinda cool how someone who was so into drugs and the whole glamglamcheckcheck lifestyle is actually a pastor now. i guess God really works wonders huh.

anyway.... i had my first tuition session after church. the boy is a sec 2 sji student,who got a b3 for english in his mid year, and wants tuition.

my mom says to me, 'can you go and color your hair? its super ah lian.'

this whole weekend was a hard one. i had a very hard time deciding between the material stuff in life, against my values in life. (yes i do have values okay.!!!)

confessions of a teenage drama queen is such a nice bimbo movie!! next up would be 13, going on to 30.. and mean girls.

okay. gonna pack my bag for tuition tomorrow!!

my parents and my mom's side all the aunties and uncles are going on a short holiday to malaysia on the 14th june till the 18thth june. and my aunt keeps asking me to join them. but i told her a thousand times i really dont wish to go cos its gonna be plain boredom. i will be the youngest with no cousins or whatsoever to talk to me. and i prolly cant smoke when cigs around me will be how fucking cheap?

the only place i wanna go now is kl. how i wish i left yesterday afternoon on a coach to kl. i wanna go to kl's zouk!! i wanna go to kl. NOW NOW NOW. simple enough. not next month, not in afew days time. i only wanna go to kl NOW.

i hate myself for checking things that will enable me to find out things that i shouldnt know.

am i making sense?

anyway. did you hear the hottest gossip? commedesgarcons is in singapore.. and no i dont mean like oh,club21men has it. but they actually have a store. now.... everyone go go go!! cos every guy needs at least a commedesgarcons shirt in their wardrobe as that special shirt for that special event. makes sense? meanwhile, im satisfied with my commedesgarcons wallet.

ACK. i dont wanna get my pay cos......... that only means i will shop more. but i dont really need anymore things. okay maybe just 2 pairs of jeans from gstar and seven. and err more birkenstocks. nice plain tops. get them in as many colors as possible, make sure the fit is good. and err no more shoes, no more handbangs. oh yes daphne, no more jackets too. more ralphlauren polo tee's please. and i still need a marcjacobs in my wardrobe. thats about it. and of cos........ if the $1050 gucci bag is on sale.............................. I WISH!!!

so huang came over last night.. and thus i didnt go to work.

im home on a friday night.
and i am going to be at home the entire day tomorrow. abit lazy to head down to town.. thou its the start of the GSS! but..... hey, i think ive got enough shoes and all.. but still lacking a red birks, and a pair of marcjacobs. but thats not the point.

just got home and ive gotta wake up in like four hours plus time. AGHHHH.

anyway it was rouge after work for mimi's party. the mc was so bloody funny. as ive always said, gay people. best company!!

it was quite abit of drinks after 10. hahaha. while everyone was talking, i was discussing some weights thingy with alex.

damn tired.... fun day. catched up with many people. and i kept whining to wai about..... hahha. okay. as if we dont know who. i should just shut up.

work... BAH!

oh yah as usual whenever im out at late at night, i tend to call my bro. and i talked to him for like TEN MINUTES after i heard the song by beyonce at rouge. typrical typrical!!!!! and the thing is, i think i was abit too high to remember what i said. DAMN.

I AM GOING TO BE A TUITION TEACHER.

-pauses. gives you time to get up from the floor.-

last night's aftermath, enlai just had to message me this afternoon to ask for danny's email. cos he's going to LA next month to interview the spiderman2 people. so he's gonna pop by ny to look for danny. how nice of him. and he was asking me whether ive got anything to pass to danny. was thinking about this the entire day.. sadly ive got nothing to pass to him. yah sure i could pass him photos of us recently. i could pass him photos taken in bali the other time. i could pass him images of things he has missed. but then again, does it matter? will he look at the pictures and think of us, and maybe if im lucky enough.. he'll miss us and give us a call? or would he just chug it aside, cos he's too busy.

rouge tomorrow night.. mimi's party. hrrm.

okay. gonna go read instyle and paint my nails again.

thank you to evelyn who had to hear me whine last night. but thanks for your advice and it really meant alot to me.. and no its not your fault. you didnt make me cry lah!

its time i get over this whole danny shite.

so ive got tickets to the blackeyedpeas concert. free standing. freaking 99bucks each. and im at home now.. how stupid right?

now ive got yellow, pink, brown, blue, purple and green hair. damn funny lah. worst than a parrot.

most prolly going to the gym tomorrow. but the distance is putting me off big time. agh.

i like the serious side of you. i like the fact that you're spoilt. i like the way you roll your eyes and grumble. i like the way you laugh,especially during the uk endurance show.

//edit edit. its freaking 10.30 now and im not asleep!!

anyway just hung up the phone with eve. we were both fighting to bitch. not literally bitching about people but sharing. lol.

there's yoga lessons tomorrow for me. but im not too sure whether im attending them cos miss low made me promise not to attend yoga lessons cos then she not only have to pray about my smoking thing, have to even pray for me and yoga. ha. but its fucking tempting... agggh!! okay. shall not give in to temptation and not even go to the gym tomorrow incase i go there and get tempted and just join in the lesson.

on a more serious note, its been freaking five months. danny lim,i miss you. everyone does. so why the fuck did you have to leave? you staying out alone in siglap was enough. the distance was already hard to bear. now you're in fucking newyork,brooklyn. tell me when will i ever see you again? do you even call? fuck,no. you think that 3 liner card for mom on mother's day was enough? there wasnt even a fucking phone call. the past few times that we actually had a conversation.. im always the one doing the calling in the middle of the night just so that i wont wake you up. and you? you're always the one telling me you're busy and you need to go.. yadayada.. will call mom soon.. blahblah. all rubbish. i guess mel kor is right. you're just escaping. just like what i do all the time. escape. so i guess its in the genes again huh. only thing, you do it big time. leave the country. leave your close friends, your family.. everything. and i fucking admire you for that cos i will never ever have the heart to give up so much. here i am on the 5th month that you've left, thinking of you and whining. and what the fuck are you doing in newyork? i dont wanna know. i would like it if you were frank with me. im not 7 kor, im freaking turning 18 this year. 5 months will soon turn into 5 years. will i see you within this 5 years? ha. stop dreaming daphne. is this family placed that lowly in your lifestyle in freaking brooklyn? do you not even have the freaking time to reply jie's emails? did jie and mom not deserve a sms/call from you sometimes? or even me whom you so dearly called, 'my little baby sister'. and yet again, my mind goes back to the few days before christmas last year. and im left in tears again. all the talks about calling and writing back. even moe received a parcel from you. and in it, containing a small lesportsac bag for mom. could you not post it over to our place with at least a note? im so sick and tired of defending you whenever jie gets upset with you when you reply her long emails with 5liners. tell me they're wrong. tell me im wrong. tell me you care. please.

i have the funniest looking student card because my white sportsbra was showing from the collar of my blue shirt. how greatt.

i want a 16yearold boy who rode a motorbike to school 9years ago. =)

last night i came home.. and blogger was down. so here's it.

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okay so its 4.20am on a monday morning and i just got home. and ive got freaking work in few hours time? nah actually im lying. took off cos had ta go down to lasalle to get my student card done. now the problem is, will they accept my hair? shucks. ahhh. see how later lahs.

anyway i slept for like only few hours and woke up on sunday morning for church. followed by lunch with hazel.. catching up and all. and it was a lil window shopping thing in town.

and off i went to the gym!! hahaha. yah yah.. laugh and roll your eyes. was there for about an hour and a half? i think smoking has sucked my stamina away or something? agggh. now my butt, thighs and my imaginary abs are aching.

went to my aunt's place after that. as usual.. the older people talked.. laughed.... while zerlina jie and i were just rolling our eyes and melvin korkor was sleeping..

oh the kelvyn and this other guy came over about 11.. oh i think his name is bert. anyway.. yah so i joined my cousin and his friends for supper at some thomson place.. horrid prata and dinosaur i swear!!! eeeeyer. clever ed just had to choose that horrid place because the good one was too packed. and we were seated in 2 tables, on one was ed, serene, roy and bert. the clever people who held clever conversations about money and machines? and on the other was kelvyn, melvin and i. the bummers who dont really give a shit about those stuff. so we were basically rolling our eyes and all lah.

roy is this sec school teacher... and he actually offered me cigs. he said something like.. "you want cigs? take as many as you want..".... until he found out i was underaged, and i found out that he's a teacher. it was like a whole OOOOPS thing. hahha. and they were talking about students these days engaged in sex and all.. and writing them in letters? how sick.

so in the end it was only kelvyn, melvin, ed and i. which was good cos i felt most comfortable with them. maybe cos they treat me in this small girl thing? and i miss it alot cos i dont get that treatment anymore. used to get it from danny. and also maybe cos hanging out with them is like danny+his group of friends. swell. had a heart-to-heart conversation with my cousin. was really good.. as in i told him everything... he also knows lah. and its like how we're both in same positions, we're the baby(s) of our respective families and all. and we were talking about homosexuality. which made me see homo in a different way? not against them.. never. and i seriously suspect homosexuality is in the genes. seriously. and no, neither my cousin or i are homosexuals.

ed's driving is scary. he doesnt care about traffic lights.. speeds like crazy.. oh anyway we ended up in kelvyn's place to watch errr.. korean shows. they're damn nice. those war movies? and kelvyn's room is quite similiar to mine. got a shock when i went in.. cos we had the same flooring.. same b&o phone.. same concept and all. same bookshelf. haha. only thing, he has a beautiful wall and i dont.

okayyy. long long day. im tired thus the rambling. ta.

home!!

today i learnt how to play the drums.
and the conclusion is? i cannot coordinate my hands and my feet. i think im a joke. seriously.

town with jessy. walked around.. so bloody packed. agh.

monday, mambo. =)

met eve yesterday and all we did was go to worship prac to look for miss low. or rather wait for her.

eve had to be home before 12 so it was coffee with only ms low and i till about err.. 330? yah. quite amazed there was quite a bit to talk about. but nontheless, had fun lah. only thing was i kept rolling my eyes cos the people at the next table were damn irritating. and miss low just couldnt stop laughing.

i wanna watch troy!

i went to exodus today and i saw nice nice shoes again!!! and i went to Xsquare and i saw even nicer shoes. agh aghhh. no money. how to buy shoes? i think i need to start buying more clothes cos i think ive got enough shoes. yupp. but the shoes i saw today were darn gorgeous. i want i want i want!!! growwwwls.

anyway ive got tickets to the blackeyepeas concert. but im not interested at all. bah.

oh.. guess what. i smoke about 2packs in a week.
which means about 19bucks a week. which adds up about 76bucks a month. and ive decided to quit smoking cos its too expensive. and what am i gonna do? i joined californiafitness!!!! HAHAHAH. laugh everyone. laugh everyone. im determined to lose weight. cos im fat fat fatttt.

i now have many many different colors on my hair. i think cos the red and purple faded or something? so now there's red, orange, purple, blue, brown, green, blond and pink. now tell me, messy or what?

sis, 'daph go to melvin korkor and color your hair back to brown okay? its very ahlian now.'
bro in law, -loooooks- 'yah lah. its superrr ahlian. but at least nicer than your ugly green hair. but still color it away.'
sis, 'daph dont listen to him. dear only i can say about my own sister's hair okay. stop being mean to her.'

.. jokes.

the weather is horrid. like heatwave or something. GROWLS.

so.... should i color my hair AGAIN? what color this time?

dinner with beks and evelyn last night.. breko's again!! beks, dont be so sad k ditz? we're always here should u need someone ditzy. or anything else alrites?

evelyn and i bought misslow her belated birthday present. this pair of flowery slippers from exodus. (oh yes i bought my exodus lime green denim wedge heels!! heh.) and when we got to misslow's place.. i laughed like i never did in ages. i mean seriously.... there were tears rolling down my cheeks.

ive got some free 2 weeks membership thingy at califitness. ahh!

lunch with miss low, evelyn and hazel was good. =) and im supposed to try and quit smoking cos miss low asked me too. okay. no promises.. but i will try. yupp.

i saw a very girly side of miss low today while the two of us were walking around. cool. hehe. and im still pondering about the pair of exodus ditzy denim/lime green wedge heels. but ive already bought 3 pairs of shoes yesterday. and i dont really need another pair of wedge heels since ive already got 2. but then again.... i do not have a pair of lime green wedge heels yet!! and again... i dont need a pair of lime green wedge heels. and then again...... but ive got 10% discount cos of the membership thing. aggghhhh. and its really pretty. although i didnt get it yesterday and today, ive got a feeling i will just get it soon cos i prolly cant resist the pretty heels. and yet again... how often am i gonna wear them? ive already gotten like 20+ pairs of shoes this year alone. not like im gonna wear wedge heels to school when term starts.

anyway was talking to miss low about stuff.. and yah i guess i kinda brought it upon myself by reading it. i should have known better.

owell. work tomorrow. BAH. can you hear me whining over here? its another 5 days of crap work. and there's mimi's 17th birthday party at rouge on friday.. woohoo.

vanhelsing made me thought about alot of things.. like how dracula was trying to coaz van outta killing him? it was like how satan said such nice things to us and yadayada? scary.

anyway i came out today intending not to shop. met wai and melly.
and what happened?

i stepped into heeren with only my handbag.
i stepped outta heeren 45minutes later with my handbag, and 3 other shopping bags.
which means.. 3 new pairs of shoes. havaianas, converse and lacoste. setting me back by about 160.

as usual, i told myself the usual things like..... 'ive always wanted a pair of oldskool shoes from converse and a new shipment finally came in.. besides ive got 10percent off from e heer card.' .. 'well its the last pair of havaianas with the pink dots on it.. and even if its not my size, its okay what. only a little bigger.' .. 'well ive always wanted a pair of adidas white maryjanes.. and since adidasoriginal doesnt produce it anymore, why not get a lacoste and ive got 10percent off.'

and as usual, im always like... 'shit. why did i buy more shoes?' im horrid.

oh i saw aloysius yesterday in longjohn and i practically shouted his name across the whole longjohn. missed him man. thou i worked with him for about 2 days only. but he's damn funny. he cracks the funniest jokes.. says the funniest things in the funniest way.. and does the funniest things to chase the irritating browsers away. and he still owes me a drawing for my tattoo!!

bed time!

i just woke up. feeling damn good cos its been ages since i slept for like 12 hours..

i think im going to stay at home today to clear my bookshelf. and yes i do have a bookshelf.

im so proud of melvin kor kor. =) now i guess he's the only brother figure i have left.. hrrms.

just got back not too long ago.. met beks at hollandvee for coffee.. had fun. hehe. and saw ms low and geral.

afterwhich was town.. with cat, wai, kel, stef, mi.. etc etc. slacked around.. saw enlai and thank goodness he didnt see me smoking. it seems like everytime i see enlai, danny will like msg him the day before or call him.. weird. finally found someone with moe's number to collect my lesportsac bag.. it has been with moe since jan.

long day tomorrow!! clubbing ladies?

so it was mambo last night with cat, wai, kelly, azhar, edmund and err.. 3 other guys. forgot their names. oh i went to the member's area! cos roy brought me in.. and yah was at the member's area with roy, stephanie, and err.. prolly afew more guys. but i forgot their names too. and i brought ronny in to the member's area.. lychee martini without the martini cos iforgothisname was drunk and he just stole my lychee.

well.. slept for only like 2 hours? and had work. i was so freaking sleepy during work i actually took a short nap during lunch and all the short little breaks.

im thinking of coloring my hair black or something. abit sick of this color. yikes.

okay. so like quite afew people commented on how i could NOT go for the wake on saturday. and also not go to the memorial on wednesday. well for the 2375293th time, im saying.. i had plans with bev on saturday. it was planned like quite long ago. and then you will go.. 'but she passed away.. how could you not go to her wake and see her for the last time? you can always see bev.. but that was the last time you're gonna see her.' well i guess im just not very good at managing my time and all okay. but she and her family have been in my prayers every night and whenever i remember her okay. please dont put me out as such a heartless person? i dont really think its the actions and all. i think its the thought? okay.. im just finding excuses. besides how do ya want me to go to a wake with red hair? you know how disrespectful it is?

took mc today. and slept till about 11? which is very early for my standards. bah.

i need a smoke. damn. this whole weekend i consumed 19bucks worth of cigs. i will just die soon.

im fat lahhh. i hope the pictures of the hairshow dont appear anywhere!

exactly a year ago... i remember going to kimseng.. and then yadayada.. went to the hotel for fun with the school people and left around 6plus to go to deb's house to sleep before church i think. yah. a year.. oh man.

just got home.. goodness. church this morning seemed like yesterday..

anyway jessy came to church today! but she left really early cos she had family brunch kinda thing. so it was katong laksa in holland... 2 days in a row. bahh. with evelyn and hazel. oh it was so sad during service when ailing was praying for mrs lee.. sigh.

so off it was to the esplanade at one-ish.. and we slacked all the way till 4plus before we got ready.. yupp. was slacking at the stage entrance place with darren, ed, danny and my cousin. was damn funny lah. the makeup artiste came and i was saying damn mean stuff about them. and our segment, melvin's segment.. we were all so slack. at 6plus when it was the try outs thing, we were still damn clueless. and kelvyn can just win the best latecomer award.. but in the end the 7 of us girls came up with darn good stuff. it was plain, simple and yah.. swell. unlike the rest of the segments where they have all the funny formations.. criss cross here there and everywhere. and we had the best music.. you know how everyone was using such typrical catwalk songs? melvin korkor chose 'shanghai diva' for us. it was so darn cool. those who have been to thatcdshop would have heard it.. its like house+chinese song kinda thing? so the start was like damn nice.. and suddenly you have cheena music.

and we wore the plainest clothes. ours was a very simple affair thing. and kelvyn didnt even wear a shirt to fluant his fab abs and small waist. was getting last minute jitters before we were on.. so anyway.. yah finally it was us. the girls came out.. yadayada.. did our thing.. and then kelvyn the man came out.. walked to the front.. and cos there were 7 girls.. i was the center one.. they all walked in pairs and stood at the side of kelvyn.. and i had to walk to kelvyn.. and then he took out this rose thingy, i took the rose, looked at him.. looked at the rose and flinged the rose to the audience. it was so bloody ditzy i swear. worst i ever did. and then kelvyn had to hold my hand and we all went to the back to wait for the man of the show... melvin! haha.

after which was laupasat with ed, kenny, cheng, jac, lina, melvin, nick and kelvyn. damn funny. so we ate gonggong. and cos i was so blur.. ed was like calling me gonggong. and he was saying next time order gonggong tell the uncle.. 'uncle one daphne please.' i like chilling out with them.. fun bunch of people. haha.

think im not going to work tomorrow. hrrm. anyway today was a swell day. and jessy and i were saying how un-lesbian we are. like how we will never be a lesbian cos we were like commenting on those guys. and of cos the hottest went to kelvyn lah. he did it like a model. but everyone was very shocked by the flinging of rose thing. the rose thing was a impromtu thing. the girls thought of it like 5minutes before we were up cos we found a rose on the floor. haha.

im officially a 100% parrot. green.. blue, red.. HA. cant believe im saying this.

now i want the shanghai diva song!!

so this is daphne reporting live from kimseng. yah yah yah. how lame..... roll your eyes please everyone?

amazingly thou i slept at 6am this morning.. i woke up at 10.. feeling very happy. and i was only supposed to wake up at 11 to meet bev at 12..

i think i really really need nicotine sweets or something. yesterday was one bloody pack. and today i bought another.. and im down to my last 6sticks. darn. cigs are freaking expensive..

anyway it was hollandvee with bev and it was so great to see her after afew months!! it was lots of sharing and all. and she may be going to church camp with me!! =) and denise came by for awhile before she left for work..

i think im gonna go to lasalle.. do well in it.. get it over and done with and try to have fun at the same time. sounds abit impossible thou. bah. but im gonna make it thru and not let my bro and everyone else down. cos he told me specifically dont drop outta lasalle... be good!!

gonna go to hollandvee to meet jessy later and shes coming to my place tonight. for more catching up and yadayada. and its off to church tomorrow and a long wait till the hair show.

its been a hectic weekend. but im loving it so far. woohoo.

woke up on friday morning feeling really horrible. maybe cos i had this bad dream.. not really bad dream.. but it was a very real dream.. tunnels.. chasing and stuff like that. bah. so i went to work with the 'agh damn. work' attitude... but i did my stuff and all. stuff envelopes.

dont know whats wrong with me. puked out my lunch around 4ish. damn sick. anywayyy. rushed down to toni&guy. and i missed my train station and happily took the train till i was at bugis.. i was like.. 'damn. i think i missed rafflesplace.' was too engrossed in my book i think. and observing people.

anywayyy. so i met jesse!! her exams are finally over and im choped all over by her. haha. miss that girl so so so much. had to wait for melvin kor kor to do some of his stuff.. so we did the usual thing. walk around boatquay. and talked.. which was all swell. wanna know what time we were done with our hair? ONE FREAKING AM IN THE MORNING. jesse and i have matching red fringes. but ive got an extra purple part. melvin kor kor did my cut and color so its all swell. prolly go back to him in future and pay for it. and abigail did orange and green.. which is all nice and funkayyye. shared a cab and sent abi home.. and off jess and i went to holland. it was breko's and more catching up for us. till when we checked our watches.. we were like.. 'what its freaking 5am?' oh yah saw samantha there too. i seem to see her everywhere. seriously.

tomorrow is bev day! and mom's dinner day! and sunday is hair show day. we're gonna go in thru the artiste door. which is the backdoor lah. but sounds nice.. haha.

long but tiring weekend ahead. fun i pray!

on a sadder note, she passed away. yupp. i guess shes up in heaven with God now. so.. pray her family is taking it well.

okay. so i guess we all know by now. mrs caroline lee is in the hospital.. blahblah. shall spare everyone the details incase its not supposed to be too public.. but hell yea.

lets just say im more affected that i thought i would be. the stir in my heart once i read the sms. not a stir of joy but a stir of loss. as much as i would like to gloat about it cos she wasnt really my facourite person back in st marg's.... i remember those times that i got into trouble, which was err.. quite afew times. anyway. yah as i was saying.... mrs lee had always been the one who would talk to me in private after scolding us together.. she will always go like 'daphne, come here..' and that would be followed by a pep talk on me choosing my friends well.. and my walk with god. i remember her telling me a couple of times that im a very special child and i shouldnt throw it all away by getting into trouble all the time and forcing the school to take actions on me. i guess without mrs lee, st margs wouldnt be where they (we) are today? i remember fondly, once she called me up after some sec4/5 graduating pep talk... (this happened in err.. jan 2002 btw.) just to accuse me of being a butch. just cos i cut my hair really short.. and i got so affected i called my sis and whined to her about it.. making her take a half day off.. just to come down to my school.. dressed in her powerrr worksuit.. same haircut as me.. (leong kor lah. cant blame. he has this thing for cutting identical haircuts for my sis and i cos he thinks we will look more sister-ly.).. heels.. in short she looked like one of those bitches in shenton way lah. i think those who saw her on that day would agree. anyway yah so my sister kicked a big fuss...... and surprise of all surprises... mrs lee actually apologised to me. that was a real childish incident.

i dont know why im even typing all these out.. i really pray that god grants her family strength.. and let a miracle happen? why do we always get so sentimental after bad things happen? i guess this has taught me to appreciate the people around me more. you never know whats in store for you the next day.

agh. thursday's plan didnt go well. bah. anyway it was a not-bad day.... thou my hair color appointment was cancelled cos melvin kor had some last minute errands to run for the hair show. so its tomorrow instead.

which makes tomorrow a busy busy day for me. work till 5.30... and then rush down to toni&guy.. and then its wala's with jessy! prolly breko's after that till morning or something.. ha.

anyway i still took my half day off.. met edric and yongheng cos its edric's birthday!!! happy birthdayyy! =) i went into life bookshop and blew sixty bucks.. bought a book for eve.. and a book titled big girls dont whine for myself..... read a little.. its a darn good mood. yupp. share about it here sometime soon.

i pray she's okay. this stir in my heart when i found out about it.. she isnt a bitch as what everyone puts her out to be. st marg's wont be where it is today if not for her.. i wouldnt be where i am now if not for her.. if shes some lenient bitch,i'll prolly be a more terror child. but as always, we say such stuff only what bad things happen.. all i can do now is pray for a miracle. sigh. shes done so much. please grant her family with strength as they go through the ordeal. amen.

so yesterday was a horrid day. bahh. cant believe i was such a bitch. anyway my door is fixed. by my sister.. all she did was use a key to fix it. wow..

my sister just told me that im fat. growls. yah lah. yah lah.. im the fat one in the family. boohoo. ='((

my ex classmate from bukitmerah was so nice. he came down all the way to my house in the afternoon to pass me my yearbook and my report book.

so tomorrow its half day off for me. followed by a hair color job. and then town for clothes fitting and shoe fitting... and its a movie with jesse baby!! =) cant wait.. its like a mambo week this week? thursday with jesse.. saturday with bev..

i miss school. bukitmerahsecondary. =(

weekend sounds good. so does tomorrow.

im in this super irritatable mood now. and i hate it when im like this. cos i will just scold my mom, the maid, the girls and everyone else. and they dont deserve such treatment. agh. sole reason why im so irritated now is cos i came home, only for find that my room's door is spoilt. not literally. but fuck. the bloody lock is stuck or something. so if i close my door, no one can open it from the outside.. it can only be opened from the inside. which is actually good cos then i can smoke in my room and not worry about them barging in. but fuck. its my room. and i hate it when things get spoilt. its like.. my room isnt my room kinda thing? my maid doesnt respect my privacy at all. she barges into the room all the time without even knocking or whatever. i dunno. im just feeling very very irritated now. and im like screaming at everyone at home. which is damn bad of me. AGHHH. hate it when im like this.

there's this lady at work who gives me sweets all the time.. biscuits.. and all. shes damn nice. but everyone else dislikes her. but i like her.

well.. the only thing im looking forward to is coloring my hair on thursday.
what color this time? hrrms.

im really dreading work tomorrow.
its worst than school. cos in school, i know i can sleep during lessons. work? how to sleep? agh. im in this highly irritatable mood now. what a contrast to me telling myself many things during cell yesterday and sermon today. agh. feeling like crap.

was a total bitch just now at bukitpanjangplaza. went there with my mom to get dinner and do some grocery shopping. and becos today is the first day the new foodcourt is opened, the whole bloody place was so fucking packed. in the end, i had to eat prawn porridge for my dinner cos that was the stall with the shortest queue. i was a total bitch at the plaza. i grumbled and whined to my mom non stop. i scolded some irritating people. and i stared at people who stepped on my white birks and didnt apologise. i was basically.... being very mean. at the back of my mind i know i shouldnt be such a pain in the ass. but agh. i think it was the lack of sleep or something. ahh. im just rambling.

finally moved my bose set from the bedside table to my study table. cos i was getting quite pissed seeing kyra playing with my bose set.. meaning opening the cd thing... touching everywhere.. pressing the buttons and all... and on top of that, my maid just sits beside her and let her play with it. i told her countless of times dont let the girls touch my hi-fi. but does she listen? no. so now im stuck with this super cramped supposed study table. i have my com's harman/kardon speakers next to my bose. so i think im prolly gonna try to connect the bose set to the computer. TRY i say again. but how am i gonna do it? i aint got no clue. and the stupid bulky b&o phone that im trying to sell away for $150 bucks. anyone? its in good condition. its the b&o corded phone.

i just found a whole shoebox full of singles that my bro gave to me before he left. moby, kylie, britney, jlo, babyface, ericclapton... all kinds of music. which is of no use to me. and i found 10 simpsons vcd!! haha. swell. simpsons marathon!

ANYWAYYYY. i think ive whined enough. im just very very grouchy after my 4 hour nap. did i mention that im really dreading work? the only thing im looking forward to is prolly the clothes fitting sometime next week.. and coloring my hair on thursday. the rest? CRAP. work. *growls*.

ANYONE WANTS TO CUT THEIR HAIR SHORT? SPUNKY KINDA THING? PROLLY WITH BANGS.. AND SPIKY AT THE BACK. COLOR AND CUT WILL BE DONE ON THE HOUSE. PLEASE GET BACK TO ME ASAP.. ONLY ONE NEEDED. AND YES YOU WILL HAVE TO BE FREE ON 9TH MAY. FOR THE HAIRSHOW AT ESPLANADE.

did i mention that im dreading work?

service is gooooood. =)

guess what happened this morning.. i was at the interchange smoking. and this old aunty butch kept staring at me. so i was super pissed.. then she came up to me and said.. "miss ah, can i have one?".......... so i gave her one. and she was like.. "huh but i smoke menthol.. aiyah. never mind lah." wahlao. give her already still complain.

holland after that. got drenched cos of the rain.........

damn cold now. think im gonna fall sick. bah.

so i got stuck in this stupid jam in town. and it took me forever to get to marina. on top of that.. i got lost in suntec area and i just couldnt find marina square. thank goodness i wasnt late.

eve, beks and i were alll wearing white slippers today. how queer. =)

saturday night fever was sooooooooo good. *all smiles* it was reallly realllllly darn good. its a super feel good musical. and the guy's body is like how nice. eight packs. his hips.. whoa. those dance moves... the dance is like superr. hahaha. now now, who uses super? quote, unquote. heh.

and at the end.... it was damn swell. they got everyone to stand.. (being the typrical singaporeans.... so many of them didnt lah. the 3 of us were the first few to stand up with the caucasians.) so we were dancing and all... damn fun. it was super feel good kinda thing? but the people infront of us were being such wet blankets. everyone was like standing.. and they just sat down. i was in a super clubbing mood after that. and its a saturday night!! but nah, we decided on dinner.

the service at thai express sucks. we waited for like twenty minutes for our uncooked rice lah. we ate so much. no actually we didnt eat. we GOBBLED our food.

saturday night fever!! =) ahhh. im still busking in the joy.

should i commit? what if i fail?

cut my hair yesterday afternoon with jessy!! now its all short and veryy guai. haha. shall decide on the color sometime this week.. coloring my hair next week. its gonna be a busy week. still got clothes fitting and shoe fitting? damn dumb. shoes from exodus.. clothes from closet affair? i should think so.

anyway.. met eve at bukit timah before going to holland. my brother actually fetched me to bukit timah. how amazing. everyone go wow. so it was wala's and quite a couple of drinks. 2 beers, 1 housepour and 1 shot. no, i didnt get drunk. anywayy. yes.. so it was breko's after that and then off to beks's (??) house for vcd marathon. which consisted of only one movie, HOT CHICK before we went to bed... haha.

anyway i dont know what came over me yesterday. i think it was the meeting my cousin.. and drinking thing.. i smoked one bloody hard pack. agh. will just get lung cancer soon.

oh i went for cell with evelyn.. it was all good. yupp.

saturday night fever!!! =)